just want to be a better man

right before the point of self flagellation became an entertaining alternative, things have gotten interesting again. pouring out my heart, soul, and resume to the electronic world has reaped a couple of job opportunities that see marc fulfilling two destinies. i can do contract work for an engineer out of my apartment at a low hourly rate which involves trudging through flee infested ram shackles and shortchanging father's day weekends. OR, i can sit in air conditioned comfort, getting my registration credits, whilst earning a great salary with good security and great BENEFITS.

and he seems to have chosen the former. why? well actually i always forget which is former and which is latter, but i can say the design/build engineering gig seems to be a bit more of a risk and thus a challenge to myself. i still feel the need to prove things to the world before i get free health insurance. and i wonder if health insurance covers the soul.